Stim Report

We went to our ultrasound appointment yesterday night. After 6 days of stims I still only had 7 measurable follicles. I was [am] quite discouraged by this. I was really hoping for more this time. I don't understand how I am on more meds and still getting the same results. Ugh. I insisted on another US in a few days to see if there are more, and how they are growing. I am trying to be positive (Sean is a great help with that), though I couldn't help but burst into tears when I left the clinic last night - man I have cried a lot at that place. I keep reminding myself that quality is better than quantity, and I sure did just wake up this morning and type "techniques to promote follie growth" into google. I am also having a hard time not letting my mind wander to the 'what ifs' of if this doesn't work. And so my heart is aching a little bit, even though I feel like I should be filled with HOPE. What is the matter with me :(

I do rest in the fact that God knows. He doesn't need numbers or percentages or luck or any of that. He gives life. He has given us a life (oh and what a great little person our C is turning into)! I plan on looking up lots of Scripture today and just believing the truth about who God is and who I am in him - no matter what circumstances are like in my life I need to be surrounded by truth.

We move to our 4th new place today - I am excited about it. It should be nice and relaxing. I have three counseling appointments set for next week - I am also happy about that. Oh and we just got word we have two packages waiting for us, so we will go pick those up today! Yeah {thanks Erin} - not sure yet who the other is from :)